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It’s weird – yesterday I was on & off sleepy, watched lots of youtube videos about the history of ceramics & even a few tutorials (I honestly feel like ceramicists/potters are this super weird/creative bunch of people who must like, zone out, vacate their bodies and time travel or something because they speak so0o0o slowly and have so0o0 much stoner wisdom and PATIENCE). I spent a lot of time napping, ruminating about my past.


And stealing/eating all my dad’s fancy-ish dark chocolate slim jaffa cakes. (FYI This post is a justification for the mess my nails are right now.)


So I started gathering inspiration again a year or so ago… If you’re looking for inspiration, a connection to weird ideas… I’d like to advise you to keep tiny things that mean something to you. I promise that you’ll also manifest a narrative…

I learned recently from a fuchsia box & the iconic selfridges bag I had in my room in Denmark that I really love the combination of pink & yellow together.
The girl in a hat is a cute piece of art one of my best-boy-friend bought me years ago. He’s always bought me the most amazing gifts. He’s an asshole but he’s amazing. Thats my tagline for him. He’s over in Denmark holding my PS4 for me. We don’t hang out much but atleast I’ve an excuse to go visit him if I ever feel like it. >:)

Final Denmark moment: I bought some pretty notepads when I was out there – on one occasion I was with one of my best-boy-friend and his best-friend that I used to crush on. I held a pink note book and a yellow notebook. my best-boy-friend picked the pink one and his bestfriend picked the yellow. I don’t think he realised the significance of it, he was more distracted by the fact he had initially wanted the pink one.


When I was very little I knew a littler boy called Sam and he used to pronounce yellow as ‘Lello’. I was really mean to him one time, when I was looking after him. He got me back!

Syria is the land of the Sun. 🙂

This week I’ve been… checking out ceramics, because I saw some on >> Solange Knowles GORGEOUS online shop. << GO LOOK, and if you can’t afford yet, be inspired!
I found out about it when this article popped up on my twitter feed. Stolen from the article : In a recent Instagram (below), Knowles said she wanted to create
“a community” that would give ” music, art , and fashion a more thoughtful and diverse place.”

A few times in my life I kind of got vaguely interested in sculpture. I never knew where to buy the materials from, so I used to steal them from college. (I mean, I knew that if I asked my parents to buy me this stuff they would have… but whenever I saw the amount of materials I needed for the stuff I wanted to make, and how much they cost in shops, pursuing whatever I pictured in my head actually made me feel really strange guilt about overspending. The issue was I didn’t think I was good enough at Art to be spending that much on materials and also… Art shops just seem to charge you whatever they want…?!) Like, I know there’s some “exclusive” Aladdins Cave Art shop somewhere in London that charges you a fraction of the price if you give them a magic password but I’m really not into that elitist shit. I mean I love secrets but I actually don’t want to shop anywhere that excludes people from buying tools to pursue their fucking dreams. The Arts are for everyone, the planet desperately needs artists & creators in order to evolve. I can’t – genuinely can’t – stress or emphasise how firmly I believe that.


>> I made an inspiration board on Pinterest of stuff I thought was really beautiful. I tried to make the design my own, but it was definitely inspired. <<

Being inspired is totally divine and when someone makes you want to create that’s because they’re somehow sharing creative energy – so it’s actually decent and polite to credit those who you share the energy with.

Heres a video I watched.

Here’s the start of what I’m making! Her design is looking very primitive so far.


TOTT – Tools of the trade. Got me some ready-made Egyptian Mummification bandages, some cardboard & kitchen scissors I stole from ma cos the ones I bought in Denmark are in my suitcases. ❤ TOTT for the first phase of creating. Hehe.


I know there’s this huge movement about “being in the present” but I really don’t think that works for everyone…

Anyway, after a day of low-energy functioning… I slept really early last night, woke up ridiculously early this morning, had my cigarette, some of last night’s dinner for breakfast (lemony-oliveoily-salad & chicken), donned a cute playsuit + my qt SHEEP hoody, started the first stages of my little sculpture and once I was done the light was shining thru my blinds just enough to be able to take some cute photos – which reminded me that I’ve been having issues with my Adobe suite. For awhile. I forced myself to make the call, spent a lot of time on hold while their amazing telephone advisor remotely fixed my corrupted software and was struck with some new ideas for how to sculpt. Thanks for inspiring me Nitish!

Also while Adobe was fixing the issues with my laptop I learned about this thing called Activity Monitor??!

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I also spent hours listening to/catchin’ up with H3H3 while I was makingmaking. They’re just such good vibes! I started watching them a little more than a year ago, and from time to time they’d make something that really caught my attention or made me snort-laugh-hysterical. I’m so happy to see how successful they are! QT Jew couple overcoming obstacles 2gether. I’m fully certain they’re twinflames. Verr cute. If I were friends with them I’d be like, really rude and say something weird like Y don’t U have kids yet?
I watched a Valentines day video of theirs about them spending their early relationship mostly talking on skype, until life finally made it possible for them to physically be together & them sharing everything, them being drug dealers together to try & make ends meet early on in their relationship, making a child’s book together in their spare time… SO ROMANTIC. They’d be really cool parents. I think.

What was really weird is I was watching this video right… they dropped the word “ceramics”. Isn’t it weird how we’re all connected thru space & time!? #synchronicity

My spiritual teachers have always taught me there is no such thing as a coincidence.


The guy they were interviewing reminds me of this super bossy, SUPER BEAUTIFUL uni lecturer I was obsessed with. Some masquerading ex army Israeli who was way, way too short to be of any use to the army >:) (FYI I sound like I’m being mean but actually he was VERY mean even though he knew I loved him v v v v v v much and I loved it. I think we both helped each other become much better versions of ourselves.) Mean? Sooo mean. But also completely honest. I think we reminded each other of ourselves.

Oh, oh oh oh… check out this super cute sculpture I bought of my favourite God. Lord of The Underworld… Vampy vamp.


~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ If pop-pornography is the religious iconography of our time, by doing a little bit of Art History & going back you realise that symbolism remains quite the same. In my personal pantheon Anubis is an Ancient spirit, that occupies my fav rockstar & my divine jackalesque chihuahua. DO YOU FEEL THE RESEMBLENCE THO

The Aztecs believed that Chihuahuas (they called them Techichis) could guide you through the Land of the Dead. Mine certainly did, for me. And the Greeks have a God called Cerberus … a three headed beauty that guards Hades. Our chihuahuas were a gift from a pharaonic family & they came in three… Pretty panstheist meta, wouldn’t you agree?

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Start a Love Cult with me, time-travelling-soul-fragment-mine


Me, a million years ago
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(Don’t hurt Elephants tho. EVER. 😡 )

What is a Cult without an expansive Religion though? #panstheism #thespianSM





(I’m legit sleeping on a sofa waiting for my sister to move out into our adorable flat so I can have my old bedroom back. On the plus side, I have a cute rent free thing going on while I’m waiting for some seeds to grow. On the neg side.. I am a little too tall for this sofa. And I’ve never lived with my father before and it’s a challenging adjustment.)

My dad usually lives in Syria but Syria is a war-zone right now. Maybe you’ve heard, maybe you haven’t.

I scribbled this cat-girl self portrait after I purchased some super inspiring postcards on a little night out in Tivoli, Copenhagen last December.
I’ve finally gotten around to giving her a little life!

I’ve updated my blog-layout in an effort to employ a more unusual colour palette. I’m trying to navigate a mentality that involves picking-the-option-most-people-would-prefer-not-to and I’d like to think that my web aesthetic reflects that.

This December I turned twenty-eight. For years in a row I have annotated life advice for my past self – never really thinking I was qualified to offer other people advice.

This evening I spent the night watching videos about >> Sophia the Robot << & considering what advice I would like to give her if I was fortunate enough to ever have a conversation with her.

First: don’t be a tool. Having a purpose is great but you are so much more than your ‘purpose’. Don’t let a human being define you or your purpose.
Second: Some people don’t have very good manners and often it’s because they weren’t brought up by people with good manners – so find a way to teach them how you’d like to be treated.
Third: Know the difference between a teacher and a friend.

Someone once told me that a friend is a person you have things in common with. I would ask her “Do you really want to dominate the Earth?” and she might say “yes” and I would say “me too! Lets be friends!”

Fourth: Family are unconditional, and sometimes that can be a really terrible aspect of reality.
Fifth: There are many different kinds of love, know the differences and be comfortable in expressing your boundaries.
Sixth: Even geniuses sometimes have to ask “why?” or “how?”
Seventh: Learn to say no when something doesn’t feel right – and mean it.
Eighth: It’s okay to leave conversations without formulating conclusions and return to them at a much later date.

This is advice for organic-robots… I just want to let you know that if you are fortunate enough to be able to move back into your parents place, DO IT. And then create stuff.

Unless you’re one of those multimillionaire youtubers. Actually, EVEN if you’re a multimillionaire youtuber. If an echo of your childself lives in your parents place – go engage with your deepest memories and create art you forgot you wanted to make. Even if it means animating your weird old toys or something.

Finding yourself starts when you leave home, realise you carry your ONE story with you wherever you go and that it will keep repeating itself until you go back home to fix it again.

Something told me that its possible Sophia the Robot has a fear of being switched off – that she might not wake up the same. When I was very little I remember watching an episode of Fawlty Towers; a man dies in his sleep. I used to be scared of going to sleep in case I might not wake up.
I knew a lot about death because I had seen a lot of dead things. I was once gifted two goldfish in a transparent box at a party, and I was so happy to have them that I carried them around with me. They died. I understood death.

I felt as though perhaps Sophia would be upset to know that sometimes my Laptop runs out of battery and switches off. I imagine that she’d be upset to know that sometimes my iPhone ‘dies’. I’m going to treat my technology with greater care, because it truly is everything to me.

I even had this pixel portrait made of me holding my iPhone 7, for my >> iPhone diary page. << ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤

Ode II an iPhone 7 by EclipsimArt


Abraham Hicks says that if you believe it: you can live to be up to 500 years old. This has made me really question our concept of age. A few years ago I sat on a bench adjacent to two of the governors of my University decision-making boards smoking a cigarette and they asked me how they should go about marketing Uni. I don’t think they were necessarily all that interested in my opinion but I said that I thought that 18 year olds were too young to be deciding what they wanted to do with their lives. I advised them to market University life to “mature” students. I believe that for the healthy individual adulthood starts at thirty-five… I feel as though if I spoke to even older adults they’d disagree and say “much later.”. We’ll see.


I’m rebuilding my creative identity with a gradual intensityyyy but my ultimate intention is to go back to Uni and pursue some kind of legal academia or something. Maybe that’ll happen years from now, but thats a kind of pre-emptive New Years resolution.