Louise Pentland did a half eye with liquid eyeliner and I copied.
This necklace, I bought for £2.50 at a local charity shoppe. This bra, I bought at Primark about .. a year and a half ago. This hairclip is from The Vintage Workshop in Brighton and it cost about £4. These shorts are also old. The ribbon around my waist is old. The crimson bracelets on my ankles – one is from the packaging of a Lalique bottle and one is a lindt bunny bell. I can’t work out who my lindt bunny is.
I’ve got green glitter in the hairs on my head.
Today I’m thinking of David Bowie and his wife, and if they’re the same person, a lady I shared on facebook some time ago: that said she found other women attractive, (because, at least if you have all the body parts of a female person,) if you do not find other women attractive it’s quite impossible to be attracted to yourself.
(That video was a fast forward response to all of the meditations I was doing – I wanted the truth – I was telepathically being made to feel ugly, I was too insecure to dress up, I was robbed of the energy to be able to go to school, I have a disability – shitting twice a month is a big deal apparently.)
I met a guy called Porter when I went to uni, he faked a death I think? I know he’s not dead because his toes changed the shape of mine a bit, but they’re going back to normal now. Wherever he is, he’s wandering around barefooted.
I’ve always found other women attractive but they’ve always been the abusive ones and I have to stay away from those because I let people that I love abuse me. It’s actually quite rare for me to find men attractive which is why it’s so rude that you’ve been stealing from me all these years.
But trust me, if I were into BDSM, if I could justify being an abuser… I could do worse than all of you.
this uh. This is not BDSM. I mean, these looks might be a thing that ‘turns you on’ but it is not BDSM. If you don’t have the guts to walk around in outfits like this then it’s a performance and theres a dishonesty to performing, be yourself when you’re having sex.
To adopt a Mark from Peepshow voice: I know the Eurythmics released a song years ago that said “some of them want to abuse you, some of them want to be abused” that is not an either or spectrum of life. I do not want to abuse people and I don’t want to be abused either.
I hung out with this guy that I nicknamed ‘kinky artist’ or something. I did it to make a guy I’d been ‘secretly’ in love with for about ten years jealous. Then I developed real feelings – the first time I met him I gave him evil looks. I fancied him a lot but I saw my first boyfriend in him and uh. Well we didn’t do anything for years.
He was too insecure to have floral dress and thigh high boot sex with me. His idea of bdsm was to put me in a bathtub and cut my pubic hair off?? I laughed because I’d let a ‘best friend’ do all of that nonsense. Literally everything he and I did was snuggling and it was not sexy, or sexual. We had the sex but it was uh. It was better when I refused. I am not endorsing rape here – it is a lot more fun for two people who know they are in love with/attracted to one another (don’t flatter yourself too much, I can fall in love with anyone) to mess around with each other by pretending otherwise.
It’s a “I could have anyone I want” thing.
It was tough to play that game in Denmark when I had PTSD from a series of abuses at the hands of the NHS who have avoided responding to a letter about it, because I know and the NHS know that their staff are probably losing a very significant portion of their licenses to practice. Maybe you guys can emigrate to Denmark.
I was being raped – in the hospital – by ugly people that I wouldn’t of accepted MILLIONS of pounds to have sex with, (sold by my “sister” and “mother”) and I was on medication that made me lose a LOT of hair (I mean, I would softly brush out huge clumps of hair. And it was visible. It is growing back – slowly.), affected my brain chemicals (which made the PTSD MUCH worse – what the NHS pretended to confuse for ‘insanity’ was actually just my personality, and they asked my RELATIVES about me – my relatives knew nothing about me, they didn’t even really speak to me when I was growing up), slowed my metabolism and gave me parkinsonism, and also – you really have to TRUST people before you start having sex with them because when you have sex with someone you’re connected to them forever and that is an STD of it’s own. If you are psychic and you hang out with untrustworthy people, you will feel it and it’ll affect you a lot. You might not know why they’re untrustworthy, but the first impression is correct.
Tifa is the worst babysitter in the World and I think he'd prefer
not to be trapped there.
This was done to me when I had anorexia. Here: I was a size 0.
My hands were not that big, but that should give you some idea
of how tiny I really was. I felt fat and I had a very badly
raised boyfriend with a terrible family unit of users,
who liked to make me feel fat too. They regularly abused me for
anything from what I was wearing to not accepting a cup of 'tea'
because I had never drunk tea at home.
My phone was hacked to alter my shapes and proportions.
I recommend you consult anime or artist's representations
for a good idea of proportions - I once saw a video of Beyonce
and I knew she felt she looked bigger than she is, and I
thought 'you are about four ankles wide in this.
The kind of women that would have been able to do this in 2013
had money, and I know a lot of those were stalking me at the time.
There were wives in Farnham that were very threatened by me, and
the fact that their kids would love to talk to me and obsess over
me. Well the reality is I'd be a better parent. Sorry.
There were also footballers wives who were stalking me, I said:
'Emma Thatcher', 'Louise Redknapp' etc were women who knew of me
and who arranged for my 'sibling' and a friend of hers (I hate
both my 'sibling' and her friend, but they were a million times
hotter than those women without trying very much. Both are very
attractive to men in little more than tracksuit bottoms.)
You might think its a COMPLIMENT to be stalked by women like
this, but it's annoying.
I'm now experiencing the same problem, and my Spiritual teacher
Lisa is experiencing the same problem. Both she and I have been
robbed in many terrifying and irresponsible ways of the opportunity
to be parents, pit against one another by those women who would
use physical insecurities or our gifts to make us feel negatively
towards one another. Taking ideas from their taste in men.
I was "inspired" (Zoella has ruined this word, with her tacky
company.) to author this because I know that Louise is losing
a lot of weight, and I really want to have her in my life.
I don't want her to think that I'm hotter than her, I've seen
how she looks when she loses her 'mum chubb' and trust me she's
the hottest one. If she plays my game she's the hottest one and
she's not gonna be playing YOUR game. I mean, bribes work a bit,
do bribe her, we'll have stuff to take the piss of later.
I noticed that Amber Khan's proportions are being made to look
a bit strange since she got a breast augmentation (she's had a
child, he's eleven or so years old. She works damn hard, so it's
quite fantastic that she looks about sixteen.), I've noticed that
people quite like to hack women whove had augmentations to
appear as though they have bigger arms than they do and thats
fine. Weird, but fine. But I want those women to know what
you're doing.
Stop choosing lesser women to befriend you, or to think of.
My teachers are not flawless, but they need to be knocked off
the pedestals I place them on when they start misbehaving -
those women you'd of wanted to choose over me were my
abusers.
They are stalkers. If they'd abuse and stalk and SELL me,
(they allowed their husbands, their husbands boyfriends etc to
RAPE me, my "sibling" - she's no longer that, but this is truth)
and my "siblings" one attractive friend.
I had to "set" those terrible women up with the most evil kinds
of men. Why the fuck would I set my sister up with Sascha Baran
Cohen, why would I set up Vanessa with Floyd Mayweather?
These are not nice guys but if I pick a winner you better believe
they're going to win.
They do not only eat rotting meat. They like everything I like to
eat but they aren't that keen on dominos pizza's desserts.
They wanted the cookie because it smells nice, but
they didn't eat it.
They've literally just left it there.
Also, while it has melted slightly in their home, and offers
a nice texture for snuggling and orgies (I imagine)
they don't eat it.
They also do not eat Peanut butter.
Nor do they eat Caramel.
They LOVE pork (which tastes like human flesh apparently)
and they love lemon.
They like lemons. And tinned tomato. And I think some of them
committed suicide in maple syrup today.
They are not stupid.
(THEY CHOOSE TO STAY IN THERE. THEY REALLY, REALLY DO.)
(Being a fly is quite lonely.)
but it is 
Does this babytalk trigger your maternal feelings? If you are under
35, get an animal friend. Love something that is not yourself.
Spend a few years doing stuff that has never been done before with
your animal friend(s) and then come back to those feelings.
