i used to experience happiness when i saw the colours red and blue
i dont anymore
i used to experience happiness when i found the number seven
i dont anymore
it was autistic but it was a result of not being happy ever
(you wouldnt of known cos i perform happiness around others, otherwise why hang out with others)
now i just noticed that the most views ive got is
-_-
and because you need me to mansplain
views arent a self esteem thing
this is genuinely upsetting to me.
i’m not interested in you. take it personally.
if i am interested in you, you have no interest in me. again – this has no impact on my self esteem.
i’ve had such a shit time that i prefer it like that