i used to experience happiness when i saw the colours red and blue

i dont anymore

i used to experience happiness when i found the number seven

i dont anymore

it was autistic but it was a result of not being happy ever

(you wouldnt of known cos i perform happiness around others, otherwise why hang out with others)

now i just noticed that the most views ive got is

-_-

and because you need me to mansplain

views arent a self esteem thing

this is genuinely upsetting to me.

i’m not interested in you. take it personally.
if i am interested in you, you have no interest in me. again – this has no impact on my self esteem.

i’ve had such a shit time that i prefer it like that