my hot chocolate flavour of choice has always been “options”

so I stared at a photograph of Alexander McQueen/Levi (whatever we’re going to call ourselves at this point) and I thought about applying for a scholarship to do fashion again – cos there’s a foundation that apparently funds artists and he wrote this

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I’m a medium so…

>> Some old blog you should peek at <<

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Inspiration of any kind is attached to the human chain. So – that idea you never told anyone about – that trickles down to someone who will actually do it, if you don’t. And that is extremely important for our mass evolution. Do all your ideas – and if someone directly inspires you maybe be kind enough to credit them – only because we all need that validation.

Think of how many artists Lady Gaga has inspired and not gotten credit for :/

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There’s someone who occupies me that hates fur, hates meat – hates cruelty towards other living things – but is actually not opposed to sexual cruelty, which I personally think is worse than death. The Planet is more interesting and much more beautiful when it carries contrasting personalities, with opposing views on what might be “right” and  what might be “wrong”. And in addition to that – through growth, we develop those opinions, we are subject to change and development. And industries like fashion thrive on that ever changing, ever reverting quality.

I got really upset yesterday, because as someone whose interacted with extremely wealthy people – I find it offensive that they don’t use their money to make life interesting for everyone else. There are so many artists/scientists/creators of any kind that would do amazing things if they had as much money as the vastly wealthy.

One time when I was applying for an assistant designer role for a shoe store in Copenhagen (where everyone literally wears the same thing – and those that don’t get famous pretty fucking fast) – I was sitting in a Hotel my sister likes to go to sometimes to relax, and I got out of my chair and thought “I really need some inspiration” and I went outside and I saw a woman wearing these.
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This was an affluent part of West London and these are expensive shoes. I went back into the hotel and told my sister about the shoes – and she said “Oh they’re Minna Parikka”.

I get that people are afraid to show their wealth, but if wealthy people wore beautiful outfits in public – then the affordable chains like Primark would be more inclined to sell “expensive-looking” clothes.

Along that vein, if you do want “unique” clothes – buy stuff from markets and charity shops and mix and match. I’ve said this before – I think that the fast fashion industry would do better to create much more limited runs of clothes – Primark don’t do collections for fashion shows, they make the clothes and put them on rails. If they were to hire more student designers, who designed much more items – people wouldn’t walk down the street in the same fucking outfits.

I got really upset because people are so boring.
It’s only “okay” to be boring if your mind isn’t but I very seldom experience that.

I once joked at London College of Fashion “this has been my sluttiest year actually” and everyone sort of just awkwardly glanced at me as if I’d said something really terrible. So… boring people kind of exist everywhere.

The most boring I’ve ever been was when I was in the midst of serious mental illness – and thats what I think boring is. Mental illness.

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“I’m the bitch you hated… filth infatuated” – the best “about me” ever and I can’t even prove I authored it

Forgotten crushes – Keith Flint, Sanka from Cool Runnings

I only ever truly fancy myself and fragments of myself – and thats probably because when I love someone, they become self obsessed. Self obsessed people make other people angry and angry people look good.
Loving me will kill you if you don’t confess to it.

I’ve always said that if I were a boy I could have anyone I wanted. But I have a lot of power as a girl.

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So Levi told me that he’s Timbaland … which makes sense … and that his twins Blood and Y/Jae?ger are Nelly and Justin Timberlake

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Killing someone doesn’t change their soul purpose. They come back in a superior form by far.

Let it GO?
No, shan’t

Omg wait – doesn’t she look like Louise Pentland? I’ve got such a crush on her. I know she obsesses about stuff that she can afford to “fix” but she doesn’t even bother and that actually makes me crush on her even more. Like if she did “fix” stuff that people like to tell people is wrong about her body I’d probably crush on her as much as I do right now, because it isn’t actually a person’s looks that makes them attractive – it’s everything about them. (I was looking through the McQueen scholarship website and our favourite bit was a girl – one of the artists I think – who kind of exuded a personality in a single photograph and totally wore the dress she was in.)

I watched a Louise Pentland haul and I bought something just because she looked so cute in it. And also most of the nice clothes on Asos seem to be for plus sized people. Or maybe they just look better in the clothes.
I don’t really understand why “plus sized” people can’t model for catalogue photos??? Genuinely??

I did that picture of Louise as Aphrodite and two days after, she posted her haul and was being all annoying and insecure :s

Here’s a card from my favourite pantheon > ref < (Doesn’t she also look like Reagan Suicide??)

^ This is a super important moment in internet history btw

So uh. One time my sister did a dance to this song in the car – and then I did it and I think it might’ve been seen by lots of people? I don’t know/don’t remember anything. What I do know is that little boy spanks himself pretty hard and that you could use that as a spanking sound effect in porn …. But the moves that she did (I should make a video, maybe I will…) ended up in this …..

And yes these are silly childhood dances and when these kids grow up people may well use these videos to embarrass them – but a more appropriate response to memories like these are “THATS SO CUTE”
So I did a dance to this song?

I BLAME THIS. But really it’s impossible to know with three people who switch bodies all the time.

But actually the important song on this album was…

And the monk burning in fire actually died in that protest – and it’s weird, when I put my hand through fire it didn’t burn me. 😉

[Hook]
Killing in the name of…

[Verse 1]
Some of those that work forces, are the same that burn crosses
Some of those that work forces, are the same that burn crosses
Some of those that work forces, are the same that burn crosses
Some of those that work forces, are the same that burn crosses

[Hook]
Ugh!
Killing in the name of…
Killing in the name of…

[Pre-Chorus 1]
Now you do what they told ya
Now you do what they told ya
Now you do what they told ya
Now you do what they told ya
And now you do what they told ya
And now you do what they told ya
And now you do what they told ya
And now you do what they told ya
And now you do what they told ya
And now you do what they told ya
And now you do what they told ya
But now you do what they told ya!!
Well now you do what they told ya!!

[Chorus]
Those who died are justified
For wearing the badge
They’re the chosen whites
You justify those that died
By wearing the badge
They’re the chosen whites
Those who died are justified
For wearing the badge
They’re the chosen whites
You justify those that died
By wearing the badge
They’re the chosen whites

[Verse 1]
Some of those that work forces, are the same that burn crosses
Some of those that work forces, are the same that burn crosses
Some of those that work forces, are the same that burn crosses
Some of those that work forces, are the same that burn crosses

[Hook]
Ugh!
Killing in the name of…
Killing in the name of…

[Pre-Chorus 2]
Now you do what they told ya
Now you do what they told ya
Now you do what they told ya
Now you do what they told ya
And now you do what they told ya
(Now you’re under control) And now you do what they told ya
(Now you’re under control) And now you do what they told ya
(Now you’re under control) And now you do what they told ya
(Now you’re under control) And now you do what they told ya
(Now you’re under control) And now you do what they told ya
(Now you’re under control) And now you do what they told ya
(NOW YOU’RE UNDER CONTROL!)
AND NOW YOU DO WHAT THEY TOLD YA!

[Chorus]
Those who died are justified
For wearing the badge
They’re the chosen whites
You justify those that died
By wearing the badge
They’re the chosen whites
Those who died are justified
For wearing the badge
They’re the chosen whites
You justify those that died
By wearing the badge
They’re the chosen whites
Come on!

[Guitar Solo]

Ugh!
Yeah!
Come on!
Ugh!

[Outro]
Fuck you, I won’t do what you tell me
Fuck you, I won’t do what you tell me
Fuck you, I won’t do what you tell me
Fuck you, I won’t do what you tell me
Fuck you, I won’t do what you tell me
Fuck you, I won’t do what you tell me
Fuck you, I won’t do what you tell me
Fuck you, I won’t do what you tell me!

Fuck you, I won’t do what you tell me!
Fuck you, I won’t do what you tell me!
Fuck you, I won’t do what you tell me!
Fuck you, I won’t do what you tell me!
Fuck you, I won’t do what you tell me!
Fuck you, I won’t do what you tell me!
Fuck you, I won’t do what you tell me!
Fuck you, I won’t do what you tell me!
MOTHERFUCKER!!!!!!!!!!
UGH!!

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“In this white man world, we the ones chosen”

Isn’t it weird how I was a victim of police brutality???????

“Know Your Enemy” >> ref <<

Huh!
Yeah, we’re comin’ back in with another “Bombtrack”
Think ya know it’s all of that, HUH!
Hey yo, so check this out…
Yeah…
Know your enemy!
Come on!Born with insight and a raised fist
A witness to the slit wrist
As we, move into ’92
Still in a room without a view
Ya got to know, ya got to know
That when I say go, go, go!
Amp up and amplify
Defy, I’m a brother with a furious mind
Action must be taken
We don’t need the key, we’ll break inSomething must be done
About vengeance, a badge and a gun
Cause I’ll rip the mike, rip the stage, rip the system
I was born to Rage Against ’em!
Fist in ya face in the place and I’ll drop the style clearly…
Know your enemy!

Know your enemy!

Yeah!
Hey yo, and get with this… uggh!

>> Word, << is, born!
Fight the war, FUCK the norm!
Now I got no patience
So sick of complacence
With the D, the E, the F, the I, the A, the N, the C, the E
Mind of a revolutionary, so clear the lane
The finger to the land of the chains
WHAT?! The “land of the free?”
Whoever told you that is your enemy!
Now something must be done
About vengeance, a badge and a gun
Cause I’ll rip the mic, rip the stage, rip the system
I was born to Rage Against ’em!
Now action must be taken
We don’t need the key, we’ll BREAK IN!!

I’ve got no patience now…
So sick of complacence, now…
I’ve got no patience, now…
So sick of complacence now..
Sick of, sick of, sick of, sick of…you..
Time…has…come…to…PAY!!!
Know your enemy!

Come on!
Yes, I know my enemies!
They’re the teachers who taught me to fight me!
Compromise! Conformity! Assimilation! Submission!
Ignorance! Hypocrisy! Brutality! The elite!
All of which are American dreams!
All of which are American dreams!
All of which are American dreams!
All of which are American dreams!

All of which are American dreams!
All of which are American dreams!
All of which are American dreams!
All of which are American dreams!


It’s weird how people pick who they like and who they don’t like. You all seem to think the “Queen of England” is a jolly ole nice lass but actually she had Lady Diana killed. You all think the Police are there to protect you but they’ll sooner hurt you than protect you – ask an ex of mine who got beaten up by the police, as a teenager, for kicking a bin.

You all like to hate on “shallow” people but they inspire you to quit being a victim and get over insecurity. You all like to hate on prostitutes and sex workers – but did you know that the kind of people that go to dominatrixes are extremely wealthy men who are so fucking damaged that sometimes – if they didn’t get out their weird fantasies consensually with sex workers it’s possible it could manifest as some kind of mental illness?

I got hated on at University by the hippie kids who had – at the time – no idea that they were much wealthier than me, and even the abused ones had had a nicer childhood than I did – a guy I was living with was being abusive towards me when I’d come home with “hauls” from charity shops. I once bought a £2 dress and that created a LOT of issues.

I sat in a taxi when I was stupid enough to leave the house without a fully charged phone and the guy started talking a lot of shit about Brexit and was so boring – regurgitating opinions in what I hope was a feigned accent and at some point the conversation touched on Germany. Hitler was Germany’s response to the reparations that left them near destitute after WW1. He was sticking up for his country.
He did murder a lot of people – but what is worse than that is that the rest of the World watched and removed themselves of any kind of responsibility. But the World manifested him, truly.

(Side note: Theres a guy who has a video of me doing that dance to the rage against the machine song and I have anecdotes about him that I could genuinely absolutely ruin his life with – so he better destroy that video.)

Also if I ever posted another video of me dancing online (you’ve seen the weird dances – two times I was occupied by an actual alien – one time I was super happy for no reason, so I went on a camming site I had a profile on and did the stupidest happy dance and got £5 dorra for it and I’m v happy with that) but I’m actually a pretty incredible dancer so…

Anyway this video:

Is how to treat people that do something that makes them vulnerable. Including posting videos about your life on the internet when you aren’t a perfect looking size 6.

Knowing that we’re all fragments repeating ourselves – because we keep killing the “weird ones” off (my fragment, generally) – (there are two kinds of death – physical death and ego death and I’ve experienced both) (I’ve been raped, too, and that is actually worse than death) – try not to kill off the pretty blonde that is comfortable with the fact that her teeth aren’t super “perfect”, and the fact that she’s not super skinny.
First of all – if her teeth were perfect (cos’ she can sure as hell afford to skip braces and get some new ones) and if she was skinny (she can afford to skip the gym and have some stuff done too) – she’d be – based on what you think your own standards of beauty are – infinity times hotter than you.

If I had the money that I’m owed (I’m owed a terrifying amount of money by the way – I’m talking billions – and if I took it to Islamic court I’d easily be able to get it, but I’m hoping my family will try, for the first time in their lives – simple honesty and giving me what belongs to me.) I would probably have a few “jobs” done here and there and lets be honest – I’d absolutely destroy the Universal-You’s lives. (Thats how they’d want me to spend the money but their concern is that isn’t how I’d spend my money – I’d fund a massive World take over.)

How does a person like me… garner so much influence? I don’t have any followers online, I don’t even really associate with anyone enough to call them friends… Iunno but it starts with being a kid that got NO attention and whose only interactions were sort of to be made to feel bad about herself – for a good ten to thirteen years of her life. Yeah it sucks but it’s made a fantastic little monster out of me and in my not-so-humble opinion it’s exactly what the World needed. (Oh – my bad bitch from Sri Lanka was a housemaid we had in Dubai, her name was Mala.)

A teacher once told me that “insecurity” is kind of ultimately just a thing we evolved to have when we felt like “breeding” or something. But it is also something that people in the public eye experience a lot – when you have insecurities, and when people are looking at and observing you and noticing those insecurities – it really magnifies them to the extent that the telepathic exchange can truly destroy you as a person. I HATE to say this and I’m sorry if you read this but that poor girl in that Vice (I looked worse, so don’t even) article was so beautiful – and perfectly formed – and she ended up on the starving African child end of a size 0 because of the attention drawn to a little bit of fat around her knee.

The only way to break out of that pattern is to have a sense of humour about what bothers you and to genuinely love yourself anyway. (And if you’re me – get the plastic surgery afterwards) (Or laser your ginger beard off because NO)

The person who gives you the hardest time in your life, your very biggest bullies – are the contrast that is directly responsible for your choice to persevere – and perhaps later, your success. (So imagine a whole Planet being stupid enough to hate you, when everyone also accepts the truth “what comes around, goes around”)

Do you know what creates strong, powerful people – that get remembered forever?

It’s struggle. It’s having a hard time. Isn’t that poignant?

Cleeeeopatra, Kariiiiiiii… etc. The Karma remains the same… And that’s probably why the Illuminati had to turn me into a vampire.  It’s sad there’s no vampire emoji actually, I feel like it’s a hatecrime?????? If you make things difficult for me and I respond by being “nice” to you it’s either because I mega fancy you or mega pity you (bad stuff happens when and to people that mistreat me) or you are mega irrelevant (you’ll work it out in the years you spend thinking about our meeting) (and I will most likely forget about you but you will not forget about me) because struggle makes you immortal

Also, genuine struggles teach people empathy and sometimes you really just don’t want to hurt someone when there’s so much that can be said or done to hurt them. Or that is, at least, the case for me. I don’t like watching people suffer, I don’t like hearing about it.

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>> ref <<

(Oh – and when I had a vampire freaks account my username was kampf… Like that book Hitler wrote)

 


The most important thing that can be said at this point – about fashion – is that everything means something. If you have dyed hair, piercings, tattoos etc – really remember that there were kids that got beaten up for that, who got called weird for it on the streets. You might know how to blend your drag-queen bronzer but someone had to get called weird before it became socially acceptable and worthy of a youtube-tutorial.

There are lots of kids being born into bodies that don’t reflect their inner gender, and that is very much a spiritual concept. Not an LGBT battle.
So in my opinion, the next stage of fashion is to step away from 90’s kids clothes and weird/boring stuff. If you’re a kid and you’re lucky enough to have a “dress up” box, there’s probably something closer to how you’d like to dress in there than in your wardrobe.

I mean really, “don’t be boring”

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